Oh my friend, my love, my distant stranger. I’m writing this to you because I cannot go on, I need you to know the truth. I’m writing this to you because you’re the only man who has ever touched me in such a way that I myself, cannot even fathom. I need you to know you’re the only man who has ever made me go completely limp. As if the faint sound of your name makes my entire body tremble, and I fall I fall I’m falling—slowly. I’m writing this to you because
I cannot tell you these things aloud. Maybe it’s because I feel as if I have already lost you. I’m writing this to you to tell you I’m sorry. I’m sorry for not being the one you want at this point in time. I’m writing this to you because I want to thank you for being honest and for telling me the truth even though it hurt. No, I may not know your favorite color or what makes your blood boil, but if there is one thing I do know it’s that you would never lie to me. I’m writing this to you because I want to thank you for your kind words because if anything they made me respect you. I’m writing this to you because I want you to know I miss you, I miss laughing with you. I miss the high-pitched touch of your soft laugh, but most of all, I miss the way you lifted me up when I was down. Oh how I wish you would come back to me. I’m writing this to you because I know we may never be ‘together’ and that’s ok, but if there’s one thing I want you to know it’s that I will never forget the way you made me feel–the way you still make me smile. I want you to know that I meant what I said when I told you I will always be here if you ever feel alone. I’m writing this to you because I don’t understand why–why you’re the only man I ever think about, the only man I want to be with, the only man I want to touch. I’m writing this to you because I want you to know I understand, I heard you when you said, “I can’t.” I’m writing this to you because I want to thank you for breaking me gently and not tearing me apart. I’m writing this to you because I want you to tell you how you still bewilder me. Oh my friend, my love, my distant stranger. Comments are closed.
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